In The Heart of Winter
Winter 2008 Letting Go. Battles and Triumphs. The Holidays were about family and friends.. Then I struggled with Tonsilitis. Next I faced dark forces at one of my jobs. But in the face of that – discovered solidarity amongst my peers – it was frightening, exhilarating and empowering all at the same time. My best friend’s father passed away and I sang as thoughts of him were cast upon the bay. Two other friends lost a parent each.. and my battle was yet to come. This last Sunday, my dog Queenie (17 yrs old), a beautiful husky/australian shepard mix – started to seizure. Thursday -my ex Victor, his girlfriend Jena and myself had to put her down. It was one of the hardest days of my life. She was an intricate part of my soul. I miss her every day. I hope she has begun a new life in some other way. I love her very much. (There is a photo of her in my gallery). Death dances around and between us letting us know this life is fragile and precious. I am happy to have connected with all beings in my life.. and to be able to create music. Recently I’ve been collaborating with my bro Brennan. And in two weeks I jet off to N.Y. to create my destiny. Endings and beginnings, all beautiful and frayed, delicate and resilient, simple and complex, and dear to my heart. The heart breaks, the tears fall and the heart beats again – stronger.
Posted: January 28th, 2008 under my thoughts.
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